I am angry.
A long time internet acquaintance of mine is dying. He has cancer. Doctors have given him six months to live.
I know God isn’t going to heal him because God never heals anyone with terminal cancer.
I know God is not going to make his medical bills go away because God never pays medical bills.
In times like these God is AWOL.
Oh we want to think God is there.
We want to think God cares.
But he is not there and neither does he care.
This man gave his life for the cause.
He worked, preached, and taught for poverty wages.
He did without so others would not have to.
Because of his unorthodox views he was often criticized by the keepers of orthodoxy.
He asked too many questions.
He talked out loud on his blog and it made people uncomfortable.
He was a shit-stirrer and he was damn good at it.
But that’s all over now.
He is dying.
He is 53.
He has a wife and two grown children.
If there is a God I am angry with God.
He could have done something about this.
He could have brought healing.
He could have done any of a number of things, but he didn’t.
God sits on the sidelines indifferent to suffering.
It is better for me to say “no God.”
Without God I better understand that life isn’t fair.
People die.
Genetics, environment, lifestyle and luck of the draw determine how we will die.
Bad things happen to good people and bad things happen to bad people too.
Life is what it is.
I can understand that….without God.
Suffering and death………were the hinges on which the door of my defection from Christianity swung.
I want nothing to do with a God who is indifferent towards our suffering and death.
I want nothing to do with a God that afflicts me and kills me for my good and his glory.
No, with that God I am angry.
Better for me if there is no God.

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